galaxy of dreams

2006-11-09T11:58:00.000+08:00

Hey Peeps. I'm Finally Back!!! WAHAHA. eeps><. Okay, finally posting affter a looong time. I'll promise after the exams I'm going to make either this blog undusty or perhaps create another blog too... alrighty!! Going now...cya

2006-04-05T17:52:00.000+08:00

Confused Soul, poor thing.
How I miss- ah wells, no use talking now.
Let's see, topic....
Is love everything?
so random.... kill me

2006-03-26T10:33:00.000+08:00

>> Havent posted for AGES.... I guess no one ever visits this place anymore (not like anyone actually did). Ah wells, not much been going round lately- just clearing my room. Well, my room's like REALLY messy, so, I've been trying to give it a new makeover. ( that'll probably last for a day....uh>< ) I'll try and post up more... for my own's sake. Hmm, actually realised that quite a lot of on the spot poems are created on my last posts. O_o

Lofty as the lotus's cleave,
Boldly as the sand,
Defys the gushing water's flow,
Is one and one in that.

Tetereia, murmurs the tadpoles,
Whisperings all hushed away.
Gracefully, as the swan's petals,
Shall she, come to rest at bay.

>> Oh wells, gtg now, guess i'll see ya soon....(let's hope, won't we? )

2006-02-06T01:10:00.000+08:00

Don't look back

Don't look back
Even if you don't want to leave,
And you can still hear the soft calling,
Remember the memories.

Don't look back,
Even if your heart's breaking.
Torn apart by two worlds
and still walking.

Don't look back;
End that tunnel.
Even when your tears start flowing,
And you long still to go back.

Don't look back, Chihiro,
I'll say, even though i don't want you to leave...
And as i gaze upon your disappearing form
far away in the distance,
Hope that you will forget.

Forget me, and
this place,
which once held a memory so clear.
And though it pains me this way,
it's all good.

And when your years start passing,
It's torturing when I stand there, and you can't see me...
But even so,
Don't look back.
And as I let my tears freely flow,
I'll wish for you to start a life anew.
Anew in your human world,
as i watch over you with bittersweet tears.
Softly whispering," Don't look back"

Lavonia

A poem for haku and chihiro in spirited away. Just read one of their fanfics and im so touched ><. I really think spirited away ROX!! Haiz, havent been updating for pretty looong, oh wells.
Finally updated. Now, i gtg. Cya, peeps/

2006-01-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

Hurried Greetings,
Now,
Saying goodbye.
Nothing Else
Left to say... Just
Open
Your eyes.

Wonder in search of a peasent, shaggled home.
In shambles he lives, yet poor gives him lone.
People in search for a question once formed;
Yet answer lies not in riches but in soul.

Dear traveller, braving danger, you travelled
real far. Yet journey ends in this temple, lone one.
Small temples that hides great secrets, it is.
Yet the hidden are not meant to be found, so it seems.

Curses, Charms, Black magic of old.
Keep thy hidden secrets untold.
Leave your body, never to return;
In company of fellow travellers
Seek, For the very same answer
For a whole new History.

But, alas, young one.
Mankind has not earned it yet.
A key to the past, with magic intact.
A mysterious place, ah yes, but grand.
But one in which, science does not have.

Wonder in search of a peasent, shaggled home.
In shambles he lives, yet poor gives him lone.
The haunting lines of a first starting song,
Let it haunt you, Night after dawn.

..............

So, how's the poem? (not expecting an answer)
Oh wells, long since I wrote.

Sec 4 is definately soo much more stressful...i so feel the heat><

wish me luck.

2005-12-25T00:26:00.000+08:00

Havent posted for a REALLY looong time. Ah wellz. Just wanna wish all a very merry christmas 2006. Celebrated christmas at my grandparents' house today....hmm
speechless
kill me.

2005-12-12T11:14:00.000+08:00

Havent been posting much lately. Loads of small and big happenings have been passing so fast, memories still blur by the events. Well, let's see... Just cut my hair on Saturday, and I think this time, it even worse than the last. Sigh. Life-saving course has started since last week and just touched down in Singapore on 2nd of December.

Have been shopping much lately,hmm

2005-12-12T02:07:00.000+08:00

It’s for the words that never come true
For tears that fall because of you.
In memories that fade as time slowly passes
Seeking of the world, all it’s wonders
But yet, if only you knew
What everything was about.
Seek- look it’s winter.
And as the snowflakes slowly set upon the ground,
Even as they melt when next spring comes,
They’ll still sigh for you;
For you’ll still not understand,
Still, not know why.
As autumn leaves fall again,
And dawn brings a new arising.
She’ll still be waiting for you.
Still be looking down that same old window,
Staring, at the long gone image of you,
Seeing the path that you once walked-
Now covered deep, fossilized in layers of snow,
And wonder.
Thinking,
of how life would be like if you had only knew.
Wondering,
Why she had fallen for a guy like you.
And even till that day,
I think you still did not understand.
All she wanted was not diamonds, rubies.
Not your money, property or popularity.
All she wanted,
Was- you.
Just a humble life, be it a torn ‘lil cottage
Or what ever notts.
Just , simply, to be with you.
Pity-
Because, you never knew.
And every year,
Like a habitual routine,
As winter comes, she’ll look out of the window.
And even when body and soul is exhausted,
Or even as she passes on,
You, never knew.
That she was always waiting, these past years,
That she never gave up on you, no matter what,
But, yet, you…
You
Never knew.

Just a short something. Sorry for not posting soo long ><. Got a haircut and this time I really think I screwed my hair up BIG time. Hmm, look at the time...better get going to bed. Cyaz

2005-12-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

I'm back! I really stink >< . Weather down there is soooooooooo different from Singapore, and for this past travelling week, so many stuff has happened. My legs are aching really badly now, better go rest. Just wrote to say hi^^

2005-11-23T19:10:00.000+08:00

I'm leaving today, actually in 10 minutes time.
Stupid of me to take my time out isn't it? I dunno....just...just....will miss ya'll soo much. It's just...
soo mushy, and yet ...it's just how I feel. Really dun wanna start crying now. It'll be like... so, embarrasing, but tears are already starting to swell up. Stupid grace. Just kill my emotions now, will ya... I...feel so stupid.
really just wanna say goodbye.

wait.... and...
I'll miss ya all.
Really.
Loads.

P.S. If the damn coffin does comes, tell him to put it at my door.

2005-11-22T20:36:00.000+08:00

I'll be leaving for Prague tomorrow... On this last practice session, we got scolded yet again...sigh. I really hope we'll work when we get there as at least mantain the standard. Really hoping that stage fright won't pull off on us. *prays*

Today we finally got our black t-shirts, and well, they look kinda weird with our gowns, or maybe, I'm just not used to it, that's all. I love the scarves though, although they really break and fray easily... like the design and colour.

I'm gonna bring real loadss of food ( well, you know, I'm a glutton, not to mention that it winter...makes people feel even more hungry ). Hope that it will last ><...

I gotta sign off now, last minute packing ><
Will not be blogging for 'bout a week or one and a half weeks, so take care.

Wish me good luck and good journey....please?

Coffin's STILL not here yet. Guess i'll be making it for this trip.

2005-11-21T00:22:00.000+08:00

havent been posting much lately. reccently been real busy with choir, but before i left, finally found time to make a blog for Jena with Galen. Jena kinda likes her blog, I can see, but she just dosen't want to say it. It's well, kinda happy for her, I guess.
Okay I gtg soon. no actually now. Post next time. Ta-ta.

P.S loads of preparation for trip going on...huff-puff...

2005-11-18T09:53:00.000+08:00

hmm...my mom just banned me from playing the computer...boohoo...i feel so sad...
Leaving soo fast...
I still can't help being soo sad.
Sigh, banned from playing.
Sigh sigh sigh.

Was even thinking of cancelling my order ofr the coffin. I guess I still need it then...

2005-11-17T20:25:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Choir. Eaten my dinner and im realllly full. Been looking at my 2005 calender....and I realised that I did not really know many people's birthdate...sigh. I'm a real birthdate freak, so I mighta go on a collecting spree again....

Choir today was...well...I don't actually know... I kept getting criticized, but oh well. I think I can take that...( hope so) I must! I mean, if I can't even take this meagre thing then what about other things? Gambadeh! Grace! ( that's me, that's me)

So far, on my calender, there are only four birthdates in January...hmm....
Not commenting in fear of depressing myself again. Hope everyone is happy....
I kinda think i pissed Sharon off....sigh, sorry.
Might wanna employ Galen to cheer her up....

Now, let's all cheer up.

I dream

I dream, Of waterfalls,
Casading down great walls of cold rocks.
Their clear waters flowing into the spring,
Refreshing, Calm and magnificent,
And oh! How the waves crash down,
Sounds of the water that calms souls.
And, the picture it paints,
Just flowing down, with plants dotting the background....
A place where the soul is living.

I dream, Of plains,
Large plains of grasses, their flowers
adding colour to the scene.
Wide, Green, and marvelous,
And, the smell of the beautiful flowers,
Just makes you fall into a never-ending sleep.
And, the scene it depicts,
The wide field, with the endless blue sky....
Heaven to the living.

I dream, Of a forest,
Where the mistical force keeps you spellbound.
A place where adventure is,
Where faries, gnomes, and other fairyfolk prowl.
And the huge trees, with branches
that covers the sky,
Letting small beams of sunlight through.
Leading me into fairyland,
A place of it's own.

I dream, Of legends,
that no one have heard of before.
Of places that is a mystery to all.
Even if the dreams are impossible,
I still dream. Dream dreams never dreamt of before.
Dream of a wonderful place,
Dream of a world of my own.

Genbeigot De Lavonia

Hmm...how's the poem? I think it's a little weird, but oh wellz, it's specially for Sharon. Dun ever stop dreaming, gal!
Sorry 'bout the ending though. Really couldnt find a nice way to end it....

2005-11-17T10:26:00.000+08:00

Forgot to add....yesterday, went a little shopping with my jie... and bought some hair stuff,as well as collected my new specs....Hope it dosent look so bad....

My jie's leaving today...and I just missed saying goodbye to her....really sad....
ARGH!
stupid feeling...

2005-11-16T17:17:00.000+08:00

heyo. Todays....well...
no comments.
going to tuition later....
sigh, my luggage is not even packed....im so going to die, aren't i?
sigh...

2005-11-15T20:06:00.000+08:00

I feel sad...
Tuition's tomorrow...and I haven't been able to come up with a design for my tuition teacher's goodbye card. I never really realised, but i guessed I really liked him- I mean, all his students do. He's just really nice, and I seriously think he teaches well. I will really miss him when he's not teaching us anymore- can't imagine. Sigh.
How I wish he wasen't the one leaving....

2005-11-15T09:54:00.000+08:00

We Knew

Hold my hand,
take my heart.
Lead me back to dreamer's path.

Hug me tight,
Close your eyes.
Although our hearts are breaking,
Our love is still alive.

Love is but an illusion,
Emptyness, but a thought.
Hurt though, the feelings true,
But, in the end,
All's for nothing-
We knew that from the start.

And yet
We are not letting go,
Still hanging on,
Tightly,
On feelings not meant to live.

We came from two worlds
So far apart.
Heavens was playing with our destiny.

Even if time would stop,
We knew,
We could never be together.
And so,
I'm going to break your heart,
I'm making the first move.
Leaving you behind
in a world, where there's still love to spare
For you.

I hoped you would hate me;
But I think you already knew.
Because on that fateful day,
An hour before,
You did, what I planned to do.

I wondered, If
they had wanted it to be this way.
Beside your grave,
I knelt down, and looked up
To the sky, Whispering
Softly, I told them
Tears blurring my vision,
We knew,
From the start, We
Knew.

Genbeigot De Lavonia

How's the poem??? Enjoy!~~~

2005-11-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

I'm coming a little more to my senses now. I feel so ungrateful... really wanna thank everyone for all the wonderful birthday wishes and the lovely birthday presents. I didn't expect so much of 'em probably because I've been trying to keep my birthday a secret- I'm well....kinda unlucky on my birthday...or so I think...

I seriously have been checking out my presents...especially the one from Su Luan and Chad, which was the horoscope book....just that it is in chinese..I'm not exactly that good in chinese, and the present from my parents, which was a creative neeon MP3 player. I have been using it quite often nowdays. It adds to my love for music.

I have been trying to do more positive things lately. Got an idea from my S&D teacher to start an anthology of poems....hopes this works out.( Im hoping mainly for two reasons. One, I do things at my whim. Two, I err....cant really write poems, at least not good ones, as you can see.)

Okays, talked a lot today. Better get off now...See ya next post...

2005-11-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

I'm older by another year today... but I sure feel MUCH older than just a year.

Choir today was stressful. REALLY, stressful. By the time we reached Dunman for this...really sudden exchange, I was really, seriously freaking out. When we finally performed...well....let's not go into details, shall we? Just have to say that the first song Gloria really calmed me down quite a bit. I really thought we were going to die, but when we first started out...it really was not that bad...or so I thought, because the leaders all say that our performance suck today, but I really can't agree.

Rushed down 10 minutes late for my make-up swimming class today. Swam for two lessons before rushing home- quite tired.

So, happy 15th birthday to myself...(altough it's not exactly happy)
My coffin's still not up yet. No mood to write a complain letter now...

A short poem now... :

Sakhoriano Motaoi /part II

A letter for the living,
Written by the dead.
A note that is decieving,
Laced in words of hate.

Look deeper and search again,
Piece the pieces slowly together,
Find the path of he two worlds,
And get lost, in this timeless place...

Lavonia

2005-11-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

I. hate. birthdays., and i've just got a reason to hate this one.
My birthday's coming tomorrow....actually, in 1 min time, and i'm not looking forward to it- at all. Eleventh of november. How sucky can it be? Very. I seriously want to die, no, I actually feel dead already.

Today sucks. And tomorrow's gonna be even worse. I just can't understand why all this is happening...I seriously don't know what's wrong, and why he is so angry...but oh well..
Think. Tomorrow's yet another ultimation, on my stupid fifteenth birthday. Sigh, the world's gonna have another case of "girl dying on her fifteenth' birthday". Hope it makes the headlines...naa, i dun really like THAT much publicity...

Wishing me good luck for my birthday....

Where's that damn coffin....eeps, im getting ruder by the minute. Maybe it's the tiringness of awaiting death....

For the people who are going to give away their lives tomorrow together with me- a poem for you:

Sing, like no one's hearing,
Dance, like no one's seeing.
Only then can the sence be portrayed,
Lived, by your own heart's fill.

Imagine,
the way you want it all to be,
Close your eyes,
paint the pictures with your movements,
graceful and pure,

And, Colour
them with your voice,
Clear as the waters of the spring.

Let the passion run wild,
And perform,
Lift your head high, and perform,
Let it be the best it can be.

But even if the show is over,
and regrets are still clearly lain;
Walk down the aisle with your head held up,
never, laid down in shame.

For this is your performance,
not anyone else's-
And the real judge is not them,
but you,--yourself.

And if tears should come,
Let them fall.
For sucess is not without failure,
Embrace your regrets,
and move on...

Lavonia

2005-11-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

woke up relatively late today....bout around 11.30 am...

Today, i went out with my sis to search for new year clothes in This Fashion. After walking around for reaaaaaaally loong, finally managed to get two tops and a pants...but I didn;t take the pants in the end.Our next destination was long John Slivers, and i think I got cheated by the cashier....hmm...sigh, you know, blur me. After that, we kinda went around the shops and i got myself this really cuute small monkey keychain for s$2.90. Got a bigger version at home- given by melissa for my 14th's birthday.

Oh yah, in tuition later, our teacher broke the news that he was not gonna teach us anymore...really sad, cause I thought he was a great teacher!!

Haha, boring entry, writing most just facts due to time limit XD reaaaly gotta go now...post up next time.

I might be cancelling my order. Probably this coffin-seller has too many to make...

2005-11-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

Hmm...
Today's a really weird day...I mean, yes, it's weirdly normal, yet because of our choir practice, it almosts feels ....well....weird.
My birthday's coming ( I do hope NO one remembers, so, if you pass by this blog and you know me, and if u also happen to remember my birthdate, please pretend you forgot it, for me ). Well, not so big a deal, you say- I feel so too. Sigh. Not much to write....it's like I have become temperarly speechless. Well, that's all....I guess...

Tian insists that I stop babbling. Chad is away...and grace is dead.
What a nice ending, don't you think?

2005-11-05T23:50:00.000+08:00

Finally finished learning my A1 piece for my piano....my B piece is a killer, though><. Written a poem, not that good though, but o well, I've got like, nothing else to post, so, here it is :

Winter Lullaby

Winter lullaby,
song of snow, lull me back to sleep.
A distant, lonely melody,
that drifts with the chilling breeze.
For outside is cold, and the road to home,
is covered in layers of snow.
The wind will haunt you, leaving you off track;
Out there, hungry, and cold.

Winter lullaby,
this soft song, blow my soul to ease.
Sing, sing it to me again,
And lead me, lead me to the land of dreams.
For dreamland will take away the cold, the pain,
and replace it with summer's breeze...

And although my body is suffering on earth,
My soul....
My soul will be set free

grace11

hope it's still acceptable to u guys...hehe, gtg now.

P.S. Coffin's still not ready. Eeps, maybe it's because I didn't pay the deposit ><

2005-11-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

....currently speechless.
Can't really believe I managed to pass the first choir audition for Gloria, but no matter, that's really not my worst song. Just LOOk at my De Angelis and see why. Keep changing to different parts that even I cannot catch up with my note. Sigh. And...why does something have to crop up on my birthday? Sigh.

I'm not actually as I depressed as I was yesterday...even if I sound like I am. Really hoping my reccording project will work. It is something like making a CD, just that the tracks are from different people and-of course- I, am the manager^^. Isn't really working though. People are supposed to BOOK the tracks, but instead, I'm begging people to do the tracks. Feels pathetic.

Coffin's not here yet. Probably because I'm not dead ( I mean, if I'm dead, they'll have to speed up on the crafting- hey, that's where the body goes, doesn't it?) , but I must say this service is bad...just hope they dun run away with my money...

2005-11-03T21:59:00.000+08:00

....
It's a bad, really horrid day, and I just feel like dying.
Really exhausted metally and physically and I'm really numb to all feelings... almost like how a robot would feel.

Hope my coffin comes soon, if not I'll probably die before it comes...

2005-11-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

Recieved requests for the lyrics of " Call Of Spring ", I'm not gonna deny you guys anything, so here it is :

Me-zue Tai-nei
Call Of Spring

In my language( Kirinmat)

Ti-ta me-a shak-le
hai-no ko to be
zon-le un-shi ko-rae
ou-i zu lek-te

Ti-ta me-a oak-she
Hai-yo no-o-om
Yun-no e-mo e-te
sa-yoh kot-tse tai-te

i, i sa ko me-zue
le-mo sa-su-de
o-a se-su a-mm-te
so-shin ba-so tei-ru

i, i to ko-ma-te
ki-lu zu yee ma
ha-ku me-lu ki-te
tai-u o-zo-no

In English

Little one awaken
Waken to the calls
Of the birds around you
Of the beasts that roam.

Little baby, rise up
Welcome to the dawn
Let the sunlight flood in,
Brighten up the world.

Sing, sing this song of spring,
Hug the mighty trees,
Let them take you hand-in-hand.
Walk the path of life, and,

Sing, take in waterfalls,
Shimmering in the light,
Tread in tune with nature,
Heading for the light.

__end___ enjoy!

2005-11-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

Life's okay.
Been busy training for the Prague competition, and actually looking forward to training tomorrow. For once, I feel like I'm ready and geared up to go...hmm...

Not much's been happening lately...lazing aroung most of the time when I'm not practicing choir scores. Wrote lyrics for a new song today. The song's for winter, just like Call of Spring was for spring. It's entitled " Snowflakes" but I haven't found a matching tune for it yet. Haiz.

My shooting skills are really degrading too. Just played a few rounds of gunbound and feels like crap. I mean, hey, what's up with the curses?

I found another friend who's intrested in coffins for herself though she's not preparing to die so fast yet. Says she doesn't want maggots eating up her body so fast after she passes away...
Wonder if my mom will let me have a coffin-shaped cake for my birthday...probably not though, I'm not usually like that...ya know.
Is teak wood good?

2005-10-31T21:41:00.000+08:00

Sorry I have been inactive for these few days...
There's just oh, so much activities going on (most being sleeping), and I really didn't have the time.

There was no rain today. I was hoping it'll rain- rain makes me feel a whole lot better (natural cure). I have not been faring well lately. Had a really bad tiff with my mother and we're not exactly on talking terms. Chad's nowhere to be seen...hmm...wonder if he's taking up basketball. Tian's just... around, probably taking a new love intrest this vey minute. (Don't know what's in his head- probably maggots) Choir's not exacly faring much better either...god knows how many times we've been asked to 'use our brain'. Pigging out again...it's my reccord month this October.

For my speech and drama centre, we reccently held an event- Halloween. It's the second year we're holding this event and it was really hectic for helpers like us. I had to dress up as Dorothy and perform this little act(Act 2, was it?) at the end of the show. One of the other pieces they performed was my own hand-written poem! I was pretty delighted, but it was kinda embarrassing too, so I begged Miss Gracey not to tell...

I better go now, before I start ranting again.
My heart bades me to say goodbye.

Wonder if the coffin seller would give me a discount for my birthday?

2005-10-29T00:05:00.000+08:00

A new day has just begun but my life has just ended with it. I don't understand why I'm so horrible at games...it always seems that I am making my poor teamate suffer with me. I seriously feel depressed; and even my maple is not working. Nothing seems to be right...

"If only I had wings to fly high,

I'll know how you feel.

The wind brushing past your cheek;

the earth, beneath you.

And feel the rush of joy;

this feeling of freedom it brings,

And gaze upon the brilliant land;

Lighted up, to the wake of morn."

Some stupid lyric I just came up on the spot. Looks like a child's work huh, well, I don't know why I'm so critical of myself today, but I just am. Better not speak anymore, if not I'm going to criticize myself so badly, I won't want to live.

Saw the coffin designs...It has more than I had expected. They even offered me a special offer for an anime design. Hmm...seems like I'm planning for something as big as a wedding. Ending here- Tian just called.

2005-10-28T14:15:00.000+08:00

School is over(just), and I'm now sitting at home typing this. Report books just came back, and i assure you, i deproved,well, only not just as badly as I expected. As usual, Chad beat me once again. I swear I'll never talk to him again...just that i always do a few days later...

Tian's in a different school, but I'm betting he got in the top 10 of his level again. Sigh, who asks me to have such smart friends? Sharon and Melissa and Su Luan and others should be okay, i guess...I'm not really asking them just YET- you know girls are more sensitive. Sigh, currently, besides typing, I'm pigging out- yes, once again.

The coffin order's not in yet...wonder how it would look like.

2005-10-26T18:20:00.000+08:00

It's three more days before school ends, and I can't wait. (although CCA takes up my whole november shedule) Today, we went to the new water factory and the tour guide was really funny...it didn't turn out to be as boring as I expected, so I'm not going to complain.

I got caught up with another song today...It's the song " If you get there before I do". The tune is just so catchy and it has just this...unexplainable sadness about it, which is much similar to the mood i am in. Chad is still lamenting about his near perfect results and so are the others, I'm not- I'm still kinda numb, like I'm trying to evade it...not sure what will actually happen when the report book comes back on Friday. I guess everything would sink in...I seriously hope I won't break down.(most likely I won't..I'm pretty cold-type). Tian's asking me to quit writing rubbish and reply him NOW. Most probably he thinks I'm thinking of suicide again...well, I can't help it can I..I mean, what about my coffin booking?

" if you get there before i do,

don't give up on me.

i'll meet you when my chores are through;

i don't know how long i'll be

but i'm not gonna let you down-

darling wait and see...

and between now and then,

until i see you again,

i'll be lovin' you...

love, me."

2005-10-26T01:25:00.000+08:00

Stress and exams is boaring everyone down these days...the world's not developing as much as it used to and till now, we still don't know whether we're the only galaxy in the universe. They do not seem to realise much about the new generation they are producing to carry on the survival of the human race; and that we are not much as knowledgable as before. Students lack many things- one of those which is by learning with nature. Hands on experiences are rare to comeby, especially uncreated ones.

I better not ramble on again. It's tuesday....well, not exactly, since it's past midnight. I'm dying-well, not yet- but soon. Results are out and the atmosphere around school is, well- depressed. No enthusiasm (not like there was any before) in anything, not even cleaning
classroom (well, i mean, there's not much to feel excited about anyway). I guess if Tian didn't stop me i'll actually be in either Heaven or Hell (Hell, most likely). My coffin's still ready, and this time I'm not going to fail...I'm sure he can't always be with me 24/7.

Any last notes?Best pass it to me soon.

2005-10-25T01:00:00.000+08:00

....sigh.....good evening..no, it's morning now...
As usual, im feeling like my soul has already left me. I'm not exactly feeling much about sleeping even though it's morning already- maybe tiring myself out would work, not really sure though. I've just finished another short presentation..really hopes it is okay. If any of you who happens to pass my blog, feel welcome to ask me for it...( if I'm not dead by then )- unless of course you're C.h.a.d. L.i.n. . Anyways, betcha Chad is talking behind my back now...hahaz, actually no. Well, for childhood friends, there must be an evil one- i'll b that!! Can't talk much....awaiting death...
coffin slot 111190 please....

2005-10-24T01:00:00.000+08:00

Konichiwa. It's sunday morning, and im really thinking of mydeath day tomorrow. Well, almost all the exam scripts are coming back tomorrow; except for chinese, i guess, since it was given on Friday. Sigh. Even my chinese's marks are not looking too good already...suicide's a good suggestion. Well, there are loads of ways to suicide if i ever needed too...it's just the insurance part im afraid of- I mean, come on, which insurance policy says that if u suicide, you'll get a fat envelop of money??(That company would be just stupid) Sigh...sigh sigh sigh. Even if i die, I would like to sigh away my troubles now. Sigh Sigh Sigh...leave me be...

2005-10-19T13:00:00.000+08:00

hey people!

I finally have my own blog!! my. very. own . blog! mine, mine, ALL MINE!! *evil laughter* Hahas, take that, Chad! (and it looks ten times better than yours! WHAHAHA) Loads of thanks to my dear friend Sharon....hmm.... I'll try and post up regularly.... but there's, oh, so much to do...well, guess that's where the word "try" comes from.

Anyways, Just wanna say a warm welcome to anyone who happens to pass by this beautiful blog that's contaminated by my rubbish...haha.(not much of a sense of humour, eh?)

Exams are finally over, but now im dreading the return of the killer scripts. How's good luck for a change....

2005-10-17T18:09:00.000+08:00

whoo. ok. this is your new blog. hope you like the template, if not, i'll tell ya where to go to change it. have fun! i linked the others and got a tagboard for you too.