blacK solitude

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

It's three more days before school ends, and I can't wait. (although CCA takes up my whole november shedule) Today, we went to the new water factory and the tour guide was really funny...it didn't turn out to be as boring as I expected, so I'm not going to complain.

I got caught up with another song today...It's the song " If you get there before I do". The tune is just so catchy and it has just this...unexplainable sadness about it, which is much similar to the mood i am in. Chad is still lamenting about his near perfect results and so are the others, I'm not- I'm still kinda numb, like I'm trying to evade it...not sure what will actually happen when the report book comes back on Friday. I guess everything would sink in...I seriously hope I won't break down.(most likely I won't..I'm pretty cold-type). Tian's asking me to quit writing rubbish and reply him NOW. Most probably he thinks I'm thinking of suicide again...well, I can't help it can I..I mean, what about my coffin booking?

" if you get there before i do,

don't give up on me.

i'll meet you when my chores are through;

i don't know how long i'll be

but i'm not gonna let you down-

darling wait and see...

and between now and then,

until i see you again,

i'll be lovin' you...

love, me."

sharon was alone 6:20 PM

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